the fight is over

Elaine passed away on 3rd January in her sleep she fought the cancer up to the end but the mets finally got her and yes they were in her lungs.  They were also in her head which she never accepted and accounts for the weird way she spelled things.  She started to go down hill from 25th December and by the 2nd of January could hardly see was not drinking or eating and was all but unconcious she was in pain though she never admitted it because she didn't want to get addicted to morphine after what happened to her mum.  She died as she wanted at home and she died in her sleep after the last rights and when I found her she had passed away in her sleep and she looked at peace.  She will be buried as she wished in a beautiful woodland cemetery near by soon.  I am Gray her husband and yes I miss her terribly and it hasn't got easier yet.

my new chemotherapy drugs were delivered yesterday

MY oncologists secrtary phoned to say my blood cont was low so I AKED WAS IT OK TO STAR THE NEW TABS AND IT WAS.
hOWEVER THEY ARE ALL GELATINE  SOPHONED THE VEGETARIAN SOCIETY AND THEY MADE ME FEEL A BIT BETTER ABOUT IT.

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went to see my old oncologist today and he put me on a new chemoterapy drug taken by mouth calledEtoposide and informed me now my hair's grown back that I will lose it iagain in 3 weeks.

wonderful brca sister. Caroline came all the wat from London to seeme today.
Had a lovely night out with our good frriends Dave and Tessa and Ianagedto leave my phone in Davee's car which he brought round fo me later bless him. Ialso had ny appointmnt with Doc Spooner for Wednesday through today.

wEHT FR AN APPOINTMEBT WITH THE OTHER ONCOLOGIST TODAY AND HE IS GOING TO TRY AND GET ME ON PHASE2 OF THE PARP TRIALS

Finally an appointment

Had a lovely day out with my sis in law and best friends Mo and PeteWonderful friends and family Also after hassling the hospital Ifinally have an appointment with my latest oncologisy after feelinf abandoned
 Really enjoying having my Sis in law to stay.

A bit of a happiier day

noter day in today .Gray went local shopping bless him and we had no significant ost . I tried to call my genetic councillor again to nform him of my brthers death but he was in Nottingham today and was asked to call tomorrow.
my best friend Mo had breast cancer the year bfore me and had a lesion on her lung but she had her last ct sca results today and they were good. there were lots of people worried about her. Last night we went out with her and a husband for a drink and a meal and I was absolutely knackered afterwards with cancer fatigue. It is so frusreating as I am usually so full of energy